First I'd like to say a huge thank you to those of you that sent me heartfelt wishes of concern during the last couple of weeks. They really did mean a great deal to me.
We have been going through one of those "stop-you-in-your-tracks" life altering moments that makes you re-asses the path your life is taking.
Recently, as part of a new medical package through my husband's work insurance he had to undergo a complete body evaluation. It was during this random opportunity that large mass was discovered in his kidney.
On Feb 25th my husband was diagnosed with kidney cancer.
Six days ago I waited the longest 14 agonizing hours of my life in hospital for him to return from surgery.
Once the surgery was over I thought we had gotten through the worst of it.
I was wrong.
I never knew things would turn so bad so quickly.
Complications after surgery almost ended him. I can't even describe how difficult these moments have been. For a seemingly healthy asymptomatic guy it was an impossible scenario to imagine.
After four excruciating days of truly not knowing if he would be returning home he finally showed signs of improvement.
Last night he came home and I am ever-so-grateful.
I am cautiously optimistic. We will know more in a couple of weeks.
I'm trying to look back now and see the lessons this experience has taught me. Things that I thought were important to me suddenly seem ridiculous and futile.
I am reminded that true love starts when the journey becomes impossibly difficult. When you are no longer cushioned by the soft bubble of ignorant bliss. When a weaker heart would crack and flee under the burden. When the choices we make matter. When our love makes a difference.
Things may be a little sporadic until I get my head back on straight. I'm working towards understanding the new normal of our lives. How our lives are now divided into the days before cancer and the days after cancer.
Thanks again for all your thoughts. I feel we have turned a corner and hopefully this time I'm right.
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Suzanne, I had no idea and I am so sorry you had to go to these shocking and anxious moments. My get well wishes for your wonderful hubby and I hope everything turns out positive with his kidney and his health. I need to go back to the hospital because of my kidney on thursday 🙁 I keep himn in my prayers dear!
Ani
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Susan,
You and hubby are in my prayers. Cyber hugs to you!!
Lots of love and positive thoughts your way, Suzanne! ((hugs))
How terrifying! Take what time you need. *hug*
Oh Suzanne, there just aren’t adequate words to convey my thoughts. Consider yourself enveloped in a halo of love. Fervent positive thoughts for a speedy recovery now that your husband has started to show improvement.
Sue xo
Suzanne, I am so sorry to hear this. Thankfully it was detected with the scan. I am sending you and your husband positive healing thoughts.
Suzanne – Wow. I don’t know what to say, other than I’m so so sorry to hear you’ve both been dealing with this. Thinking of you and sending good thoughts and prayers your way. Keep the faith.
Hugs,
Shannan
I can’t even begin to imagine what you and your husband must be going through. I am sending e-hugs and positive thoughts.
Laura
I spent all day thinking of things to say to comfort you and help ease your pain, Suzanne. I realized there’s no words that could make this go away, but I just wanted to let you know that somewhere out there there’s someone thinking about you.
Oh my goodness, my heart and prayers go out to both of you. Healthy wishes to your husband, and for you…I wish you strength, unwavering strength. Your are in my thoughts.
Suzanne I just read this and am so sorry you and your husband have had to go through all this! My God I don’t know what I would do if I had to face the same situation, crumble I expect. I sincerely hope your husband is well on the mend and my heart goes out to you both. Keep strong!
I know I already posted a comment but I just wanted to let you know I am still thinking about you and your husband. I can still remember those wonderful pictures you took of him when you let him be the model. What a great guy. Hope he is feeling stronger and his health status is moving in a positive direction.
Thanks so much for your kind words Marla.
We will know more on Monday as that is when we get the pathology report back. For the moment he is very slowly starting to recover from surgery. We are hoping for the best.
I so appreciate your comments during this difficult time.
Thanks so much for your kind words during this difficult time Kristina.
Thanks so much for your kind wishes of strength Molly. We both need it right now.
It is funny since I never in my wildest dreams ever thought I would need to mentally prepare for something like this. Nor my husband. Life is full of surprises.
I appreciate your kind words very much.
Thanks so much for the positive thoughts and hugs Laura. We both appreciate it.
Thanks so much for your kind words Shannan during this hard time.
Thanks for your kind words Sue. We are hopeful that the Dr.’s appointment on Monday will be positive.
Thanks so much for your kind words Ani. I hope your kidney is doing better!
We will know more next week regarding the cancer.
Thanks so much for the kind thoughts Jeannie.
Thanks for the hug Rebecca.
I can’t even imagine, Suzanne! Cancer is such a horrible thing 🙁 Stay strong and have hope! I’m sending prayers and comfort your way!
-Jessi
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