Top Three Hardest Things I’ve Ever Done
When you look back on your life, what’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done?
Time passing changes our perspective on memories and moments passed. What I once thought was devastating has become a vague blur of a challenging moment. The passing of time and fading memories smooth over the wrinkles of pain that were once so deep I feared they would crack open my skin deep enough to expose my bones.
Memories like that time in Portugal when my sister and I were run off the road while driving mopeds and left for dead. That wasn’t good. Then the moped company wouldn’t give our passports back and the hospital stitched me up without cleaning the wounds. Oh! And our bags were stolen and all we had for luggage was a comb and a diary for weeks. Lots of lessons to be learned there but now looking back on it all it feels more like an adventure than a crisis.
Is that because I was still so young at the time?
Now over 30 years have passed and my traumatic memories don’t smooth over as quickly as they once did.
1. When I reflect back on the last 51 years of my life one of the hardest things I’ve ever done was surviving my health crisis.
There were many times I didn’t think I was coming through the other side. It was when I felt the most alone in my life.
Four years later I still don’t like to think about it. I’m scared that as I grow older one day I will wind up back in a similar situation and won’t be so lucky. Dying alone, in pain, in a hospital hallway surrounded by strangers terrifies me.
2. Dealing with family health issues has been another very difficult thing to do.
As I age and my family members age along with me the realization of what the future holds haunts me. Loss of family members and cancers that keep multiplying weigh heavily on my heart.
Will I be as strong as I need to be? How will I cope? Will those most important to me know how much I love them?
3. Forgiving someone for something I believed was unforgivable.
This was one of the most emotionally draining and mentally damaging wounds to conquer. Moments in life we feel we could never survive rip our world out from under our feet and become the moments that define us.
Coping through difficult situations, understanding that we can’t change how life unfolds but we can change how we react is wisdom acquired only through experience.
You won’t know what you can handle until you are face to face with it.
Overcoming fears and pushing past personal barriers, both physical and mental, no matter how unbelievably difficult, allow us appreciate life in ways we couldn’t comprehend prior to the pain.
Scars on our souls connect us to our innermost selves. They teach us who we are and they make us appreciate what we have.
What is the hardest thing you’ve ever done in your life?
Linking up with the lovely Patti over at Visible Monday